F*ck it

I went out last night and had a selfishly good time. I spent time with a new friend and I let everything else slide. I've been worrying about Matt for the past few days, but I guess I shouldn't have been. I also needed a friend to talk too... I wish I could say that I found that as easily.

I know this affects Josh and Pat, but sometimes, they are just too close to the problem for me to be able to vent without hurting someones feelings. Of course, then I feel like a jackass for doing it. *shrugs*

Two things I've learned in the past week....


1. If you continuously rant about a problem but refuse to take obvious steps to correct it, regardless of how painful those steps may be, then expect people to start blowing you off.

2. We, as humans, have an inexhaustable ability to lie to ourselves, and BELIEVE IT!

Taken in tandem, these traits are ultimately self destructive and delusional.