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Yeah, drained.... I guess that covers it. Got home last night and a bunch of stuff seems to have gone wrong. Garbage wasn't taken out, plants weren't watered and about half the fish in the tank died. *sigh* That just makes me very sad. I spent about an hour cleaning out the tank tonight and I think two more of the fish might end up dieing. I'm going to try to get to the petshop tomorrow and get meds for the fish.
I dunno, just seems pointless sometimes. Ya know? I mean... how fucking hard is it to take care of a few things for six days? Really? I think most adults manage to do it day in day out for a lifetime. Why is it so hard for these guys? FEH!
Another thing that occured to me last night. And this just makes me sad. I realized that from the start that Josh assumed that I owas lying to him. *cries* He told me he thought he had to be in a relationship with me in order for me to help him. Regardless of what I'd said. Regardless of the fact that I quickly came to Love him. All based on.... what? *shakes head*
I guess I'm just too niave for my own good. I don't think that living life cut off from others is any good. I think that it's up to each and every person to help others and to do it selflessly, Isn't that what the church and all moral leaders of the world say? *shakes head* Sometimes the world just disgusts me so much. All these crap shows on TV, all they do is glorify the horrors we perpetrate against each other every day. Springer, Sally, whoever.... shows about divorce, even one purporting to be a 'morals court'. What a stinking load of crap! It only serves to show how horrible we can be to each other.
Child abuse by the Church?!? OMG! How do agents of moral righteousness justify to themselves the exploitation of a child? How do parents sleep at night after beating jr.? Children abusing parents... and do you know what absorbs us? Gay marriage. Abortion rights. Who knocked out the power. How about this for a moral outrage... we stood silently by as Iraq murdered it's own citizens. Where was the outcry from the U.N. over that? SHIT!
Instead of being the exception, I should be the norm. We live so far above our means, or we amass wealth for the sake of it. But, next time you think about climbing into a new car or buying a pair of shoes, think about how many will die today for the lack of someone just giving a damn. Scary huh? I WILL CARE!
I will NOT stand by when I see something I can fix.
Sigh.......... FUCK!
I'm going to bed. I'm just too worn out.
I dunno, just seems pointless sometimes. Ya know? I mean... how fucking hard is it to take care of a few things for six days? Really? I think most adults manage to do it day in day out for a lifetime. Why is it so hard for these guys? FEH!
Another thing that occured to me last night. And this just makes me sad. I realized that from the start that Josh assumed that I owas lying to him. *cries* He told me he thought he had to be in a relationship with me in order for me to help him. Regardless of what I'd said. Regardless of the fact that I quickly came to Love him. All based on.... what? *shakes head*
I guess I'm just too niave for my own good. I don't think that living life cut off from others is any good. I think that it's up to each and every person to help others and to do it selflessly, Isn't that what the church and all moral leaders of the world say? *shakes head* Sometimes the world just disgusts me so much. All these crap shows on TV, all they do is glorify the horrors we perpetrate against each other every day. Springer, Sally, whoever.... shows about divorce, even one purporting to be a 'morals court'. What a stinking load of crap! It only serves to show how horrible we can be to each other.
Child abuse by the Church?!? OMG! How do agents of moral righteousness justify to themselves the exploitation of a child? How do parents sleep at night after beating jr.? Children abusing parents... and do you know what absorbs us? Gay marriage. Abortion rights. Who knocked out the power. How about this for a moral outrage... we stood silently by as Iraq murdered it's own citizens. Where was the outcry from the U.N. over that? SHIT!
Instead of being the exception, I should be the norm. We live so far above our means, or we amass wealth for the sake of it. But, next time you think about climbing into a new car or buying a pair of shoes, think about how many will die today for the lack of someone just giving a damn. Scary huh? I WILL CARE!
I will NOT stand by when I see something I can fix.
Sigh.......... FUCK!
I'm going to bed. I'm just too worn out.
